get it right.

so bummed out tonight.

i'm moving back with my parents. i dont want to move back with my parents; at the same time, its for the best. i just worry about what i'm going to do to get out of my parents house... how will i afford to live on my own again? fuck. i know i'll work that out when that time comes... but for now, i'm just freakin out. i hate change. i've always hated change.

i know this sounds totally lame, but i also worry about my kitties... i dont want them to freak out or anything. ugh. ugh. ugh.

and why did i fuck up a perfectly good friendship? so bummed about that as well. i rarely think of this dude and i rarely miss him, but for the past two days, i've really missed him. we were close for a period of time; and then i had to go and choose the wrong path, aka boyfriend. why do i make such stupid mistakes? ugh. i waste too much time. tomorrow i'm starting new. no more wasting time. i think i should hit the gym tonight; i've been way too bummed out lately... and i think that not working out has not helped any. so bummed out. fuck. i really miss todd. lame. i'm totally lurking his myspace, which he recreated and didn't add me as a friend. i know i shouldn't care; and i basically dont... but at the same time, i wish we were still semi close friends. oh well. moving on...

moving. ugh. i'm going to cry. i'm too old to be in the place i'm in. tomorrow i'm doing a few things to change my mood: yoga, gym, waking up early, eating right, finishing chores i've been putting off for weeks... and hopefully doing something fun; i so wanted to roller skate tonight... damn it.

ah, i miss todd. i know i'll get over it and move on, but damn it... i wish he would just talk to me like he used to. damn me and f'ing things up.