time for.

i figured it was time for a new journal. so here we are. enjoying something new.

i've been thinking a lot lately, well i have plenty of time to do so... no job has that affect on me. i reflect way too much. i'm trying to pause time; and at the same time, i am stalling my life. i am trying too hard to go back in the past, that i'm wasting my present/future. i need to focus on the now not the then.

i talk too much about billy still. its been literally 5 years since it truly stopped. 5 years is a long time to still hold on. somethings gotta give. i've deleted him from AIM, my phone and i've taken a vow to never lurk him again. today i'm letting go, but not forgetting; its nice to hold on to old memories, but not live for them. i still live for the old days... i need to live for these days.

okay enough of that... i have stuff to do. bills to pay. fun.