classic maria.

it took me over a week to figure out what the hell my log on is. NICE. i have just about 3 passwords and i use the same freakin user name for everything. i can't believe how difficult this was for me.

anyway... i went to vegas this weekend... it was cool. even a horrible vegas trip is still pretty cool. i thought about CSI the whole time though. and how i didn't want to end up being an episode idea for the writers. vegas scares me also cause of james... who knows what happened... scary place with LOTS of creeps. i guess everywhere has lots of creeps, but vegas... eek. anyway... too much thought is being put into this. so the whole reason i went to vegas was to see my friend get married... whelp... classic maria... i missed the fucking wedding. yes, i missed it. we left the house we were staying at pretty late... and i knew we'd be late, but i didn't think AN HOUR AND A HALF late. so i was balling my eyes out and feeling oh so sorry for myself... and missy and i fought... ugh, i wont get into this too much... but... i missed the wedding. the whole reason i drove 803 miles... missed it. i feel like such an asshole. i was such a wreck... i hate that i miss things like this. i'm so dumb sometimes. if i were the person i wish i was, this would have NEVER happened... first of all... i would have gotten a room at Paris... and not stayed 20-30 miles away from the strip. UGH! i could just punch myself... ugh.

on a better note... school starts in 2 days... wednesday, april 11, 2007 at 6pm. this is the start of a new me. i'm going to do well... even better than "well" i'm going to do better than my very best. okay, thats a little too much pressure... i'm going to try my best and really work at it. i give up on things all too easy. thats one of my biggest hurdles. i give up. i'm okay with losing. and i dont want to be like that anymore. i want really work hard... cause i know the pay off feels a lot better than how i feel right now. i feel like a failure. i am a failure; but i'm going to fight that urge to fail tooth and nail! (that rhymed haha)

alright... so thats that... this chair i'm sitting on is SO not comfortable... so i'm getting up, although i just moved and i'm much more comfortable now. haha. funny. i still need to take back a cable box thats been in my car over a week AND i need to buy my school books... fuckin $200+ for BOOKS. thats just not necessary! why do they need that much money for a book????? i just need to get over it and buy them though... luckily i live with my parents now... otherwise how would i afford school???

xo