scream 4

i just want to scream! i'm going out of my mind right now... i don't understand a thing i'm reading in my anthropology book... i want to throw it out the window. its so frustrating... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhakieuraworyq2o945yq9[2ohn .QLO/. that actually felt good.

how i'm going to pass the test #1 in anthropology i have no idea. well, i have no idea what will be on the test considering the teacher hasn't given us any guidance and the test is in a week. good job, teach. i need to chill out for a minute. i need to make my bed too. i have only been reading for like 45 minutes, but it feels like a eternity. was going back to school a mistake? i dont know... i'm really freaking out. i think its just such a shock to my system, i haven't HAD to read in like 10 years... maybe more... [and i haven't] so i think its normal to be freaking out like this. i hope it is and i hope i pass, at least barely pass... if i fail, i'll probably stab myself. i'll be so bummed out. lately, i fail at everything... but i'm really trying not to fail this time. i better get back to reading. maybe i should take a walk... i bet that will help clear my mind. or is that me trying to avoid reading? probably both. <3