friends zone.

so last night i actually went out.... :O shocking. it was an okay time, but... and i mean a big BUT... i'm seriously not down for the idiot guys i've met lately... i mean lately as in since sean and i broke up. i won't go into the past few, but this guy i hung out with last night. i like him, i've known him for like 10 years... although, the last time i saw him was probably 10 years ago. haha. anyway... nice enough guy... funny... all around good guy... so we go to this bar... it was cool... we talk and there was some jazz playing and what not... then after a drink (3 for him) we decided to go watch a movie at his place, harmless enough i guess... i'm not opposed to a little make out, but i'm worlds biggest tease... ANYWAY... we went up to bramore (my favorite lookout spot) just hang out there for a second... then we went to his house to watch a movie... so we're at his place for no more than like 10 minutes when he excuses himself to go smoke a bowl! what the fuck? aren't you a little old for this? come on... is life that ridiculously stressful that you REALLY need to smoke out RIGHT THEN? you couldn't have waited till i was gone? wow. i was seriously turned off. not that i was all that turned on the first place, but yeah, no chance in hell i'm sticking around. i have to say one thing though, at least he was up front with it... instead of hiding it; i guess. still so not down. after sean i won't put up with even the slightest drug use. i'm soooooooo beyond over that stuff... not worth it. i mean i'm not going to judge him, he can live his life the way he pleases, but, and not that i'm saying he wants anything to do with me in that way, but there is no chance of him and i ever going past friends. he is definitly in the 'friends zone'.

again, i don't mean to judge or anything; i did have a fun time... he is a fun person. i just don't agree with that kinda lifestyle.

ugh... i really hope some day i meet a guy that isn't like the ones i've met. i'm over the "you mean no as in yes" kinda guys or the "what do you mean you wont have sex with me?" kinda guys... oh and the drug users. O V E R I T.